Awkward....

Why am I feeling this way, God? Is it not meant to be? Is the distance pulling us apart? How come when we are together we can't have a normal conversation? I feel like ever since we started dating our conversations have dropped significantly. Is this the way you planned it? God, I would really like if this would work between him and I. I don't know how he feels since we don't like the word love. I know this isn't love but I would like to know how he feels. I mean he has to like me, right? Or he wouldn't be wanting me to meet his friends and family. I don't want him to physically show me he likes me, but saying so every now and then would be nice. I mean granted we've only been dating 3 weeks, but I really like him. But I barely know anything about him. I don't know his life. I've only known him this short while. You brought us together but I don't know what You want us to do. Please, God, give me a sign from above about what you want me to do about this feeling of, for lack of a better word, loneliness. It's killing me inside. How do I talk to him about this? I know its not easy but if we want this relationship to last, it has to be talked about, right? Anyways, I love you, God. Thank you for this wonderful life you've given me.